ONE WHO SENSES THEIR BROKENNESS

We’re all broken!  Just look around.  I’ve often wondered if I’ll ever be “normal.”  We live in a fallen world…with a fallen and sinful nature.  That came with our packaging in the womb.

No one has their act together, regardless of their post on social media.

We’re all living in the same “camp-ground” of a sinful nature that needs drastic attention.  Yes, we’re all imperfect, flawed, dysfunctional, messy attitudes with fears and habits and vocabularies that aren’t the best.

Everyone is broken, but no one likes to admit it…. do we?!  But isn’t it refreshing to see a person who is “real, vulnerable, transparent and honest about themselves.”   People relate to and long to snuggle under the blanket of another’s vulnerability.

Brokenness is a “gift” that we’d rather not unwrap.  But God will unwrap it for us through our day-to-day circumstances showing us through our trials, challenges and disappointments that we’re walking through, and that His strength and enabling grace will be enough for the details of our journey.    

Brokenness, in God’s eyes, is beautiful.  But God sees it with a different lens!  

Our brokenness brings not only His blessing on our lives, but opens our lives for God to bless others in their journey because of what His grace & power has walked us through.    It can be an attractive quality in that it can serve as a magnet and “connecting point” with people.  

My husband and I yearned to have a family.  I was adopted, so this was a very real longing.  In general conversation, most people will ask you how many children do you have.  No children yet was our response.  I thought that maybe my womb required some medical adjustment, so I made an appointment with a physician. 

The nurse he employed happened to attend our church.  When she asked me for lunch one day, she asked me the purpose of my upcoming visit.  I shared my concern.  And to my surprise she asked two questions that gave me God’s answer.  1) Is Jesus the Lord of your life?  2)  Is He Lord of your womb.

Remember the song a few years ago, “God Makes all things Beautiful in His Time;” and I might add, “In His way.”

His work is like an eye surgeon clearing the cataracts and blurs from our eyes so we begin to see our broken dreams, desires and areas of character adjustment through a different lens…..God’s lens.  

Before His touches on our vision, we saw our life’s agenda and dreams shattered, and why would God possibly say “no” to what we had in mind for our life’s journey.   Our dreams were dashed when God said “no.” 

Not long after, I sensed God saying to me.  “You love having people in your home.  Had you ever considered that everyone who comes to your door or in your life is a child, sent by Me, for you to love?”

Not long after, we had friends who were visiting in our home on holiday, and the moment they were leaving our home, my friend turned to me and quoted verbatim what God had shared and was now in written form in my journal.  I had plans for a 6 lb, 8oz child.  God had other plans.

God confirmed His response to me through a cartoon caricature on the wall of an eye doctor.  DEAR GOD….I CAN SEE YOU MUCH BETTER WITH MY NEW GLASSES. 

It wasn’t my womb that needed the surgery, but my eyes.  He showed me His perspective, and my life has never been the same.   For we have hundreds of children that we’ve nurtured by our hearts, not my womb.   Even today, after all we’ve been through, I would choose “His Will” over my own.

So, in a “wonderful sense,” the brokenness of our dreams has given us a realized reliance and trust on God’s will being the best for our journey:  and, the acceptance of His plans and purpose has placed “Him on display” for His purpose instead of “ours.” 

Brokenness is a beautiful and delicate tool for our transformation, and often

our broken wills, life agenda and expectations become the mouthpiece of our ministry to others.  I continue to learn and embrace my limitations and disappointments because then, and only then, can we experience His power at work in us.

God’s “goal” is to make us more like His Son!  Why?  So people can have a clearer and more accurate portrait of who God is and what He is like.  “His residence and work” within us will often frame what people think of His Son.

He uses our broken hearts, broken plans, broken dreams and crippling weaknesses to display His power, grace and love.  It’s then that we’ll begin to see how He weaves His plans into a beautiful tapestry that speaks life into others.

GOD ISN’T LOOKING FOR SUPER, SIGNIFICANT SAINTS, BUT ORDINARY PEOPLE

TO DO A SIGNIFICANT WORK IN AND THROUGH.

He longs to take the “ordinary events” of our life, brokenness and all, and create an “extraordinary” journey…. a story that points toward Jesus; and brokenness prepares us for usefulness in our world, and purifying us for an eternity in His presence.

For those who have received Jesus Christ as their personal Savior, when we see Him, our eyes will be open to see what He was up to all along in our journey down here.  For then and there, we’ll be all He had in mind when He designed us.   Psalm 139

What kind of results do you want in your life….

yours or His?

Published by Dianne Horne

I can’t think of anything I enjoy more than to see lives changed! There’s nothing more that puts “oxygen and joy” into my life than to bring the application of Scripture into the “shoe leather” of our lives and to share it with others. I feel awkward speaking about myself, but I understand it can be helpful to enable others to relate to and enjoy the work of our Lord does in other people. Another down-to-earth way of sharing who I am, is that I love to eat, laugh and to talk about the Lord. I’m not a very exciting individual, but my Savior sure is! I’ve been happily married for many years, and I now reside in Vancouver, B.C., Canada. God has transplanted my husband and I 28 times in our years together; and it is only when in His presence that you can ask the “why questions” as to the adjustments He’s brought us “to” and “through” in the numerous locations and countries we have lived. God’s care, love, forgiveness, faithfulness and moment-by-moment presence has not only carried me (when I had every reason to fall apart), but lifted me to a joy I’ve never known. There’s one thing to have joy when things are going great, and quite another dimension of joy and peace when everything in your world is crumbling and unknown. Most of our lives will appear like “ordinary oatmeal living”, but when we allow Him to “establish our steps”, He alone takes our mundane acts of kindness or aid and makes them “extraordinary” for His purpose in the lives of others. The seasons of caring for my parents and the associated grieving process has forever changed me. It was my honor, joy and privilege to participate with my Lord in what He was accomplishing in their lives, as they both gave their lives to Jesus Christ just days before they were escorted into His presence in heaven. The medical challenges and decisions that needed to be made for a number of those years thrust me into a trust and dependence upon the Lord that I had never known up to that point in my life. In my journey, I’ve come to realize that our “weakness” is our greatest “strength”, because real power, provision, and His purpose being carried out in and through our lives, depends on Him orchestrating such through His sovereignty. My “heartbeat of fulfillment” lies in sharing with women, in various settings, helping them to enjoy, study and apply the principles of God’s Word in a down-to-earth fashion. I thrive interacting with women and encouraging them to put their trust in the One Who knows them best and loves them extravagantly; and to prioritize “spending time alone with God each day” developing their relationship with Him. Our lives aren’t designed to just get answers to prayer….but to know and love a very personal Savior, and to surrender daily to “His plans, His agenda and purpose” for our lives. Several years ago I was challenged to respond to a critical question I had never considered: Why do you exist? What’s your purpose in life? I live to bring an expression of God in the ordinary events of life, seizing every opportunity of serving and delighting in others. I want my life to be an infectious expression of His love for others, and for them to know how special “they are” to Him; and thus be contagious with His grace. My life compass is: After people spend time with me, what do they think of Jesus Christ? The stories that will appear in my blog, are true events that have taken place in my journey. They’re all “very ordinary” circumstances that have occurred through sharing them with Jesus and watching Him orchestrate and demonstrate what He can do when we yield “our ordinary” to the Extraordinary One.

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